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Yo...

2010-11-18T08:48:00.003+08:00

Yesterday had a great time with my Cell Group peeps xD Morning I went to the old parliment house to attend my ex Cell Group Leaders' wedding. Hahahaha so happy to see them happy... After that went to meet Chibi(WAS VERY VERY HAPPY and EXCITED TO SEE HER... yet worried) and we made our way to Tampanies to watch Harry Potter. Reached there a bit late but yahh we didnt miss much =) the movie was ok but had a great time with the CG peeps and her happy to at least spend time with her and also spend more time with the CG peeps xD hahahaha...

But... I also feel... Depressed... Is it me that I am acting so weirdly to her that she has to glare at me all the time... Does she still hate me... I know she was the one who told him that her friendship is getting sour because of me... But what has it got to do with me... I even try my best to help her... Can we put a end to this...

Confused!

2010-11-16T11:13:00.002+08:00

I am lost... I am officially lost... I can't denie but my heart is starting to open up... I told myself and told others and I know in my heart that I am very very scared of the girls around me... I swore I wouldn't have the feeling for quite awhile... But now I am starting to have the same feelings... Did I put too much feelings in her, in fact I just knew her not long ago... Am I just being flirty, but my heart hurts sometimes... I guess its sign that my heart is starting to move... Even though I guarded my feelings and emotions to prove that I dont have intentions... Why... Why must this happen...? I am so lost... I wonder what she thinks of me even... I wish I could tell her... but I know I can't tell her now... I might lose my chance, things might change between me and her... After all I am not a good person... Help me please...

Peace

2010-11-14T10:04:00.002+08:00

Why does this happen... I just want to be close to the friends that trust me... The friends that without questioning or reasoning trust me... Why must it always be people trying to seperate me from them... After all that I try to do... After even thinking for the person that doesn't even want to let this end... Why must this happen... Yet I believe that as long as my concious are clear... As long I have the peace of God... I believe one day everything will end as what Pastor said yesterday... Spring, Summer, Autum, Winter.... their a cycle and it will never just stop at one season... As long as I hold on Spring will come... I believe it will...
I have been crying over a verse in the bible John 16 : 33 I strongly believe in this =)

Sad~

2010-11-12T12:52:00.002+08:00

Love this song a lot xD reflecting over my life... Still regreting so many things in my life... Hope I could change that one incident, if I didn't make you sad that specific raining day i wouldn't have so much regrets in my life... Sorry bless you hope you have a better life now =)

BACK!

2010-11-11T19:40:00.002+08:00

Well I promised a Chibi person xD that I would update my blog so I would. Hmmm lets see it has been so long since I update my blog, from the time that my life started crumbling to it crumbled down till now Hmmmm~ all I can say is I think I am still alive LOL~! hmm lets summarise stuff... Hmmm so I'm no longer talking to her, but i hope she will recover sooner or later... Hmm I'm back in church, my life as a christian wasn't very good in the beginning but I think its great now. Really thank God that even though i been through such a tough time I am blessed with great friends to be by my side and of course a great father who has always be there for me xD i guess this is what we call a blessing in the midst of a storm HAHAHA! But I'm happy with my life now... After reflecting over the things I have done, I'm happy that its coming to a near end( I HOPE xD ) all and all is that its a better life for me right now.... At least I feel peace and rest after 2 and half years of emotional, physical and mental torment I guess its time for me to say enough already... But I guess I can say that I am very blessed to go through all this though its tiring, harsh, painful and sad but from it I've learn so much and I've also lost so much ( apparently the most I lost is weight xP) but still I've come to know myself better and to prevent things from happening.... Well Republic Polytechnic is quite Ok just hope that my E math for Os would produce an A xP hahahaha! Hmmm I also hope that a friend of mine who went to India is able to come back safely... Yupyup exams for Polytechnic is around the corner but guess what... I DONT HAVE TO STUDY HAHAHAHA! anyway I'll be off i dont know what will I update again but yahh take care!

YO!

2010-03-20T14:35:00.004+08:00

Yo very long never post le so i just summarise the few events o.o hmmm lets see have been rotting at home these days o.o Study POA o.o and go out hahaha! nothing much actually hmmm just feel very tired thats all o.o Started having tuition for Math with the "Woman" o.o yah than also hanging out with xinyi quite often o.o hahaha... but i just feel somethings not right still... like a empty hole in my life and heart... wonder whats wrong... Is this wat people call side effect O_O? hahahaha anyway upload a few pictures or else my blog will be dead... but i remember i got a few pictures with ruilin... So going to upload ONE! so pathetic

Chinese New Year Mum's friend came tom my house

Left is me xD and the right is the ball face Xinyi

WHALALA

2010-03-05T23:13:00.002+08:00

Hmmm today didn't do much o.o err morning woke up do the usually morning stuff o.o realise some fat person didn't went to school so talk to her for awhile... realise that i miss her funny and childish words... cause no one will ever do it except her and she IS THE ONLY ROUND PERSON that admits she rolls and bounce! which makes our conversation so nice.... yahh miss talking to her... She is THE person i enjoy talking to the most... even now i feel weird talking to other girls even though they are interesting to talk to o.o

Hmmm afternoon skipped lunch and went for basketball than had a heavy dinner with papaya boy and his girlfriend and TanZhiHao(Got Guts) yah so thats for today o.o

Tomorrow will be a messy day i suppose xP

I still feel weird when you arent in my life anymore... I read lots of the past comments,post,tags,sms,conversations and etc... found out that i had so so much joy with you hahaha i guess it didn't last though cause of the feelings i had xP

O.O

2010-03-03T23:51:00.002+08:00

Today stayed at home and rot from morning till 5 plus, trained down to AMK to buy a PS3 game called Lair WAHAHAHAS hmm den went to yishun to sing K with Lisheng, Yihao, Johnny and his girlfriend o.o kinda cool! As usual sing till i drop xD hmmm Tomorrow have to give Amelia tuition for Chemistry o.o HOPE I DONT GET RUSTY xD hahaha I am so rotting these days though o.o ok nothing much to post hahahas Can't wait for poly though o.o new life, new friends,new work and qouted from Jerel (NEW GIRLS!) HAHAHAs just leave that last part as a joke xP

Is it so hard to tell me whether you have a boyfriend or not o.o? its not like i am going to point a gun at you and force you to leave him or anything o.o i just wanna give you my best wishes and i will be off from your life like what you always wanted o.o Seriously i just the answer o.o Its a catalyst to start me on brain washing myself so if you still take all those things i did nice to you seriously just tell me the answer I will be very thank if you tell me the truth and No hard feelings i swear!

Happy New Year =D

2010-03-01T20:49:00.002+08:00

Hahahha New year New Blog post o.o Deleted all the rest of the post Cause its boring o.o

Anyway i got lots of things to do these days hahaha xD and i am going to join dance soon with XinYi o.o I am so excited hahaha tones of things happen these days! And now i wash my hands of everything.... i had enough... anyway new year new school new life so looking forward to it...

Nothing to Post le Bye!